Mistaken Morning

i've started today with a mistaken morning. idk. i'm not sure bout if everything your day started with a smile, the world wud smile along with ya a whole day. more-less like that! and .. yaya~

but i guess the confussion thoughts today obviously mess up anything today, especially my mood. i woke up earlier and i checked my laptop then unintentionaly i found an old captured chat of somebody that made me felt like one and only closest someone and one and only the most unwanted person at once, for him. and sorry, i was feelin like how damn you were! and how fool i was! 

and that sh*t totally lead my bad mood a whole day. omaygah i know i'm not perfect gurl either but i cant fake and trynna be nice like theres nothin happens for this freakin things ._.

Give Me Your Heart Break

There’s nothin wrong of what I’m feeling right now, but I don’t know how these bad thoughts come to my innocent morning, and awkwardly kinda wastin my time to think bout my bad relationship a couple months ago. Ewww I’m so disgusted at  em. 

You know I don’t wanna write it down my blog and seems so publish but I don’t know where to share . I know that I’ve grown up, I just nail my 17! Forget it, yeah I mean that kind of number is changing how I think over all of the things surroundin me too! One of em is bout my feeling of anyone. Yeah universal feeling. 

I’m feeling how the child growin up like a hell~

Everything feels change~

Anything come to a mess~

I cant help that sh*t feeling! man!

Theres no big change like I’m slimmer or prettier (eww) but there’s a untold thoughts. I just feel like who I was? Yuck! “How you’re so uncool! So drama queen to tears! So care bout the thing that you shouldn’t! to ……. Hemmm” #selftalk

I think bout how I was so awkward in a bad rship. Even now I’m getting much better with him but our bad rship always  hauntin me and makes me like I was playin the fool to stand! And it drives me mad latterly. And this morning, it’s messin up my mind for sure! And there’s nothing to do.